in my arms

As i lift you up from the pool into my arms
i realized you are the last thing i want to pick up in my life
i don´t want to pickup any more people
I want to hold your body close to mine like this

I want to feel your warmth
I want my hands to always have you here
As i held you there i realized
I have everything i want with me now

I don´t want to put you down to sleep
all i ever want is here with me
I don´t want to let you go
i need to let you go

I take a look at your closed eyelids
as you shake from the cold
take a look at your dried lips from the water
and wish i could kiss them

You held my neck so tightly
how can you fit in my arms like this?
and not feel like i do?
how can´t you not feel out hearts beating together?

I move slowly to your room
I don´t want to drop the thing that matters the most
I take your arm and put it close to my heart
and enter the your room

As i lay you in the bed
and cover you with a blanket
i whisper into your ear
" I love you" and you´ll never know how much

I stared at you one last time
before leaving the room
I go back and kiss your forehead
this time i whisper with a knot in my troat "I love you"
"I need you to know this"

This will be the last kiss
the last good bye
the last time i touch you
the last time i´ll let you go

I go outside the room leaving you breathing calmly
I look up at the sky and wonder why
You just teared my heart into a million pieces
and yet i still love you,  i don´t understand how?
Will i ever stop doing so?